I can’t tell you how many times I have looked at my life and just wished I could be someone else. I could have different problems and different friends, a different home with a different background. And of course everything would be easier.
But, in reality, that isn’t true. Although I assume other peoples lives are easy, or easier, I really have no way of knowing.
So the best advice I have is to trust that what I’m going through is meant for me, and no matter how tired I get, or how behind other people my age I feel like I am, I know that once I finish school (which I haven’t started what I actually want to do yet) I will be further along then they are becasue I got this real life experience in between.
When I look in the mirror I see potential, and I see promise. All I have to do is make sure that I live up to that optential and fufill those promises. Because no one can make me into who I need to be except me. And I can’t be anyone I’m not, no matter how much I’d like to pretend.
Sometimes I feel the same way. I find myself wanting to be the other person who is everything I want to be. But then I realise that wouldn't be me at all and I try to think differently. I try to act and make my life and who I am, what I want and who I want to be.
ReplyDeleteI love your last sentiment:
"When I look in the mirror I see potential, and I see promise."
because it's true.
PS: This seems to of happened to quite a few bloggers over at 20sb but this week whenever I've accessed your blog I've been redirected to a page stating it was unsafe to proceed and by proceeding to your page I would infect my computer.
ReplyDeleteBloody internet, always cocking things up.
I think about this from time to time. I just turned 30, which made me examine where my life is going in general. But I think as long as you keep thinking positively like you are, you'll get through it just fine :).
ReplyDeleteI used to think the same. i had one friend in particular who would lose sleep over the most trivial matters and I remember thinking 'I wish I had your problems'. After a while, I came to realise that though I saw them as trivial, to her they were obviously a pretty big deal.
ReplyDeleteIt's good to remind yourself of your potential -concentrating, or even imagining, the future is sometimes the only thing that gets me through the present.