You're not allowed to get fantastically, stupidly drunk and make out with whomever is in a five foot radius of you. In fact, you're not supposed to want to unless it's only your significant other in that radius.
You're not supposed to be friends with your ex's, even if you've been friends for
When you come back from trips, you're supposed to make alone time with the person you're seeing before you make any time for your friends. And, including friends in that special time is also a no no, apparently.
I'm not good at dating, I'm great at being single.
I am amazing at it in fact.
Dating is work, with another person, who you don't know what they are thinking and who sometimes have different opinions than you. It's compromise after compromise, and you're supposed to want to do it. You're supposed to value the other person's happiness over (or at least close to) how much you value your own...
Why should his happiness be more important than my own?
Isn't happiness something you yourself are the only one who can control? Shouldn't you and only you make that a reality?
If you're relying on another (or in reverse, trying to make the other happy) won't it just not work?
You can be happy with someone, they can contribute to your overall quality of life; there is no way anyone but yourself can make you happy.
And, being "that girl" who strives to please the person she is with will just make her feel insignificant, unaccomplished, and as though she'll never be good enough, or funny enough, or whatever enough...
But, she should never feel that way; her happiness is her own responsibility just as the others happiness is their own.
However, even I make mistakes. I don't call when I should, and I don't make plans properly because I want to see everyone and not just him. I don't think that if the other person isn't happy it's my fault...
... because it isn't, really.
If they aren't happy with something I've said or the way that I act, it's not my fault if they don't bring it to my attention, right? And therefore, unknowingly proceeding with my life in the same way I did before shouldn't make you upset with me, it should make you upset with you, for not speaking our mind and notifying me of your feelings.
I'm not a mind reader. I don't expect that of you, so how can you expect that of me?
And, most importantly, if you're relying on me for your happiness, you're doing it wrong. I can help; I can be enjoyable company or a great listener, I can hold your hand as you fall asleep and kiss you in the morning, I can make you a surprise or bring you some sort of gift... but that won't make you happy. And I don't want to be held responsible for that sort of thing.
That's not what men want to hear though, is it?
They want to make you happy and they want you to make them happy. They want to look into your eyes and trust you, just because. They want to know that they are your first priority...
But that's just not how I work.
I'm my first priority. I need to be.
My happiness, my future, my everything comes first. If I'm not happy, I know that you can't change that. So why should I be concerned with something I can't change (your happiness) when I am fully capable of changing something of my own?
Does that make sense?
Maybe I am just too good at being single.
Maybe I just don't have room in my priority list for anyone else.
Maybe I don't care enough...