There is nothing better than having one of the worst days in your life then waking up the next morning and without really trying everything is a little better.
Sleep helps. Alcohol also helps. I may have found the only drink I'll ever need last night. It was called a POM Sake Martini from Ruby Tuesdays. I have been searching the net all morning for how to make it with little success. I may have to just go back and flirt with the bartender till they tell me how to make it. It was so good.
Oddly it had a really comforting smell. The smell may have been why I loved it so much. I started out by saying it reminded me of my childhood... then realized that saying booze reminded me of my youth was a little weird. Then I said it reminded me of my Dad, which was also awkward. However, since I can't think of anything else, and it really does remind me of my Dad and my childhood while simultaneously being delicious and smooth, this is my new favorite drink and I will tell people why I love it.
Yesterday I found out that my friend who David had made out with on new years was hanging out with him again. I thought this was great because David needs friends and she is an awesome girl. However, I then discovered that they had actually been on a date, after I explicitly asked them both not to and explained why I felt the way I did about the situation and they both said they wouldn't.
I was so upset. How could he do that to me? How could she do that to me?
Asking David not to date my friends is one thing. It's too close to home, and the way these two got together is infuriating because it was right behind my back and very shady... but I feel like having to ask my friends not to date David should be unnecessary. I shouldn't have had to ask her not to in the first place, let alone again.
I don't want to seem like a crazy territorial bitch pissing all over the place to ensure that no one trespasses on my property, David is not my property. My friends are not my property either. But where did the bro code go? Where did not dating your friends ex's go? Where did doing things you feel guilty about... then doing them again become okay behavior?
I don't know, and obviously not everyone thinks the same way I do, but I do think that it's a little ridiculous. I'm just frustrated by the whole thing, that's all.
It's over, hopefully for the last time. David said he wouldn't see her in a romantic setting again.
I don't like this part of my personality; the jealous, green part. I don't like having all these feelings I can't rationalize... except, with this I have rationalized them. You can't be my friend and date David. End of story. My heart couldn't take it. I don't think it's that much to ask.
But, it is the green monster... and I am the meat it mockingly feeds on.
Good news is I actually do feel better today. I went out last night and had fun. I discovered my new favorite drink ever. I potentially have a woman date with my gal pal Merry, and I've been texting Adrienne all morning. Ellen emailed me and it's almost like a drug how much that lifts my spirits. My massage is tomorrow and let's all just try to relax till then so it can do the most good.
Hope your weekends are all exactly what you need them to be.