Wednesday, September 8, 2010

maybe if i remembered to name my posts people would actually read them...

Therapy before noon is proving to be one of the most difficult morning activities I've ever done. I'm so drained right now I can barely keep from yawning every 5 seconds. Also, I have a headache from crying that just hasn't gone away yet. Does anyone else get headaches from crying? It's just one of the many reasons I don't like doing it.

My goal for my next session, which won't be for two more weeks, is to think about my goals. I have a few already in my head and I think it'll be good to talk about them with her.

I'd like to not be so dependant on other peoples opinions to validate my self worth.

I'd like to be confident in my own self worth and not base it on what I do; but rather who I am as a person.

I want to be able to control my reactions to my emotions better, especially when they are related to hormonal mood swings.

I may want to take something for my hormonal mood swings, this next week and a half or so is when I usually flip my shit and turn into the girl I hate so much. If medicine can help with that, I want to try it.

I want to learn how to stand up for myself to everyone (friends and family included) in a healthy way and be able to get my point across without dragging every little qualm I have for the person out into the open because I'm on an emotional roller coaster. I want to be able to not only pick my battles but know when to fight them.

I think that's a pretty good list for now.


  1. Good luck, girl. You are really brave for sharing this publicly. Plus you have a lot of people who support and love you. :)

  2. I get headaches when I cry hard or too much. Pretty standard I think.

    Good luck with those goals :)

  3. I think it's a great list. That's not an easy lot of things to accomplish.

    I have some pretty crazy cyclical mood swings myself, and I have found that a regular yoga practice makes a huge difference in how wide the swing is. Just a thought, if you aren't ready to rush right into meds. Best of luck to you, I'm looking forward to seeing you grow through this!